Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Time for the Whaaaaa-mbulance!

I haven't run in almost 2 months, to be honest, I haven't walked in almost 3 weeks (it's more of a hobble and there is very little of that but a girl has to use the bathroom). I started having some hip/butt pain in October and decided to just keep going and see what happens. I ran a couple 5ks with my son and kept running semi-regularly. In November it was painful to go from sitting to standing....so I just avoided sitting as much as possible (which is pretty difficult when you are a full-time student and flying a plane 6  hours a week). Running didn't hurt so I kept doing it and just winced in pain periodically. Christmas vacation came and I went to Houston for 2 1/2 weeks and wanted to get back to my roots and run on the bayou where this whole running journey started 5 years ago. I ran 5 miles, it hurt at about 2 1/2 miles so I turned around. I tried walking but that hurt worse so I just pushed through and ran the rest of the way. That was my last run.....hopefully not ever.
Things got progressively worse from that point, walking started hurting, laying down hurt, standing hurt. By the time I made it back home to Washington I was limping most of the time. I had a few break throughs, they were brief but if I walked pigeon-toed it didn't hurt, then that went away. I could stretch my leg straight after about 30 minutes of heat and stretching, that went away too. I've spent the last 3 weeks in bed and now it hurts all the time.
I've been to the doctor, at first he said Sciatica so I took the pages of stretches and did them religiously. After 2 days I was in more pain than ever, so I went back to the doctor. I saw a different doctor who said I had Piriformis Syndrome, he loaded me up on muscle relaxers and potassium, told me to use heat and rest...........it did nothing, absolutely zero relief. So, I went back to the original doctor, he still thinks Sciatica but he orders an MRI. A week and a half later I finally got an appointment for the MRI and when it was done they said 8 days for the results to get to my doctor, 8 FREAKING DAYS!!!!!!
So, that's where I am at now. I hurt constantly, I cry a lot. My house is a mess, I had to stop flying, I'm failing 2 of my classes because you try to write a paper and take a test while taking 8 muscle relaxers a day, my kids have to get themselves up in the morning and tuck themselves in at night, most nights they have to cook their own dinner while I yell down instructions. I hate my life right now, depressed does not even begin to describe me. I hate when people ask how I am because I don't want to lie but I'm tired of complaining. I hate to be complaining on here but I needed this, I just want to scream and honestly, its been so long since I've posted anything relevant I'm pretty sure no one reads this anyway. So, yeah, AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel better mentally after posting this word vomit, too bad it didn't help my leg. I'm looking for miracles now.

1 comment:

K said...

Well you still pop up in my blog roll, so I read this. Hope the MRI gives you some answers and your hip gets better.